I see July on the calendar next week and I must say that 2012 isn’t quite as I imagined last December when I turned the page over to a new year. It’s been filled with unexpected ups and downs:
- My stepmother passed away in January, completing a life filled with love and service to others.
- I had knee surgery in March, which is both good news and bad news. (The bad news that I had to have surgery, but the good news that the surgery helped.)
- I had “one of those” birthdays and celebrated in grand style with a vacation of a lifetime. Making it even more special, my brother made the effort to come to Dallas to take me to dinner.
- I literally inherited a new department and new job responsibilities when one of my company’s managers passed away quite unexpectedly.
- My retina doctor has referred me to a cataract surgeon for evaluation.
So honestly, I don’t know if it’s been a good year or a bad year. It’s certainly had its share of high points as well as some very tragic low ones.
And I feel like I’m mid-stream as it comes to my RA treatment plan. I had gone off all the “hard” drugs on March to get ready for knee surgery and have only been on Mobic (meloxicam) since then. Starting this week, I’ve also dropped the Mobic. There are some troubling symptoms that may very well be side effects of the Mobic, so I’m going to drop off that and see how I do.
I go see my rheumatologist in two weeks and I honestly don’t know what to tell her. I’ve been fortunate that I don’t really feel that differently than the last four years when I was on MTX/Humira/Simponi/Enbrel/Orencia/Arava, but at the same time, I can tell that some things are getting worse. Even if I don’t feel any worse off the drugs, if I can slow the joint degeneration, perhaps I should go back on them.
This is very difficult for me because I generally have a clear plan as to what medical path I need/want to take, and right now I don’t have a clue. I guess the really good news is that I have a rheumatologist that I trust and who listens to her patients as much or more than she looks at lab results. I am going to have to listen to her guidance in two weeks when I see her.
And for me, July is definitely doctor month. I see my internist, my rheumatologist, my gynecologist, and the cataract surgeon all within the first three weeks. (Sigh …)
I was telling a friend that all the men in my life seemed to be doctors, but at least I still got to take my clothes off. (Well, perhaps not for my cataract appointment, he might think that was a bit strange. )
I hope that the second half of 2012 fulfills those hopes and dreams you had at the beginning of the year. Thanks for checking in.